The Power in Feeling Seen

The Power in Feeling Seen
When I got pregnant with my second child, my mind thought I wanted to try giving birth alone.  At my first birth I had a big old team of helpers and I didn't want any of them to touch me...I needed to do it by myself for myself. 

What I didn't realize was, I also really needed to be seen in my fullest power.  Why?  Probably because I needed that power reflected back to me because I didn't truly believe in my power.

My births feel like a dream; a dream that leave me feeling profoundly humbled. And these dream births also often leave my heart hurting because I know not every woman has the gift of this, of feeling this empowered and able to take on the world after birthing her baby from the inside out.  Not every woman has a team that so deeply believe in her ability to birth that they let her take the lead and all they do is reflect that woman's power back to her. 

Now, I am positive God gifted me these births so that I can pass it on to other women. Every woman deserves to walk away from birth feeling POWERFULL.

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The Call To Women's Work

The Call To Women's Work
Have you ever had life literally knock on your door and call you into action?  When I was 24 and living in a rented home, I got a knock on my door one day as I was packing up to move.  The woman showed up and just started talking all about what she did and who she was.  She was a midwife, a word I wasn't even totally sure I understood.  She went on talking about her job and life and I just sat there in awe, soaking it all up. 

 After she left, I was buzzing, I was sold.  I wanted it.  I wanted to do it all, work with women and be a part of the birth world.  I caught the bug, so they say, and started devouring everything I could on homebirth and midwifery care.  

I called up the woman I met and asked her meekly if I could apprentice with her.  I still knew nothing, but I did know I wanted to be a midwife.

I ended up learning from her for just a few short months before I moved to a different city.  At the time, the state I was living in didn't have "legal midwives", so it was extremely difficult to find another midwife to take me on as an apprentice.  All of the ones I found were either too far or weren't practicing anymore.  So, my dreams got put on the back burner, but it never left my heart.  

Over the next few years, I apprenticed with another Midwife for a couple of months before deciding it wasn't a great fit for either of us.  I found another Midwife who wasn't practicing, but taught me the art of taking herbs and making them into salves, balms, bath soaks, and all sorts of other goodies.

A long and windy road led me right back to the beginning many years later when I got pregnant with my first child.  I immediately knew that I would birth her at home with a midwife.  It was beautiful, it was raw, and it showed my heart WHY I want to be a midwife.  I felt so cared for when I was feeling so vulnerable.  
I felt loved and listened to and that is the gift I wish to give back to women.